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for the past few days i have been upset for a few reasons...

one is because my laptop is gone (something wrong with the motherboard... likely with the power part)... and currently i was thinking of buying a new desktop with good specs or a laptop with not so good specs using whatever money i have... however, whatever savings i plan to have for my after final year activities (like job hunting, house renting, overseas trip (?)) will be gone. It is a compromise... so it is either i get more convenience with the new PC and worry about the after final year financial issues later or live off my final year from the computer center, a tougher decision to make, and have something for stormy days... well these are the two extremes that I am considering right now as other options are more or less related to the said "ends". (side comment: tough to be really away from the family and trying to be independent... I mean it is not like I have much of a choice anyway, our house is definitely not flooding with gold bars, cold cash and dazzling diamonds and my family's overall bank account don't have trillions on them... but yeah I believe He has a reason why I am not born as Bill Gate's heir =P ... and I'm really not complaining at all... I love my family! )

second, my phone is messing up... ah... what can I say... things just don't last forever and I am not really compatible with my phone despite its very convenient features. I need a phone that can survive several atomic blast, 140G of acceleration, can work at least 1077 feet under water, never hangs when I run 21 simulation programs simultaneously on it and can make emergency calls even if I am trapped within 100 m thick metal walled room to humans anywhere in this vast universe... *bows*
okay I admit, I did not really take good care of my phone this time. my fault.

third... uh... okay this is personal and I prefer to keep it for myself.

so there... for the most part my reasons to be upset are worldly... I am still attached to the things in this world...

and hope that He will help me out with this issue... I believe He will...
I just have to be a little less stubborn most of the time. seriously this time...