today

Finally i attended sfs2 after ages. And the lesson today cleared up my confusion for ages about the Prodigal Son... Now it's quite clear to me what the Father said to the older brother in the end. He he. Clumsy me, I did quite figure why it was, I mean I did come close but not the bullseye. Now it is cleared, yay!

The point learned is: we often separate the relationship we have with God from inheritance that we get from the Lord. But relationship with God is already an inheritance that we ought to enjoy! The older brother it seems did not see this, that's why he complained. And I guess this is pretty much common amongst Christians.

Attending SFS2 is indeed an achievement but with a cost: Rohit was not able to swim with me, but that's alright I guess. We get to visit Karen atleast.

Hope Karen gets well tomorrow! Having a high fever during a paper is really not good. Will pray for her. Please pray for her =) if you read this before 1 pm Monday (tomorrow).
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munimuni:

there are silent agreements, and confirmations
there are silent white flags as well

SEMESTER 6 FINALLY OVER

AND I THANK GOD FOR SEEING ME THROUGH. HE WAS REALLY THE GREATEST HELP EVER ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS LOSING MY COURAGE AND DETERMINATION TO STUDY AND MOVE ON.

WHAT COULD HAVE I DONE WITHOUT YOU?


I ALSO THANK ROHIT FOR STUDYING WITH ME THE WHOLE TIME. IT WAS REALLY WONDERFUL BEING WITH YOU ^_^

AND I THANK THOSE WHO STUDIED WITH ME: ADITI, JOSH, KAREN, ROBS ...who else pa ba? Mega is not mugging duh... but ya...

I am glad that exam time is a opportune time to see friends from PGP, KE and Normanton. A time to mend/heal a nearly broken friendship and a time to just be persistent. A time to learn cooperation and lose the competitive mindset but work together as a team kind of time. Haha... I could say this sem was much different from the last, and I am glad. Not that I think I am doing perfectly well, i tell you i have a killer module which best describes the exam also, and four papers in four days. Had to mug for 4 papers altogether before that. Tough time it was but I managed in God's grace ;).

AND AGAIN I WANT TO THANK THE LORD, FOR FINALLY REALLY SEEING ME THROUGH DESPITE MY IMPERFECTIONS. =)

boink

Need to remind myself every now and then that my Lord has been back on His throne since two thousand years ago, watching over us and preparing rooms in His Father's House/Mansion for those who are saved...

And that my problems no matter how puny or how big, they all stand like nothing before Him. All authority has been set before Him... There is none that is impossible for Him to do. And His ways are indeed waaaaay higher than mine and so are His thoughts so I will wait for Him until He reveals His salvation to me.

Christians are not spared from problems and sufferings, but the One we have enables us to face them properly, teaching us how to live and eventually be victors like how Jesus won over death! No I will try my best not be dissuaded with false teachings and false hope. I know what I believe in and I have to remind myself daily who I am and where my home really is.

I am very imperfect still... A long way to go, and even if I am quite impatient, my Lord my God is very patient with me and eventually I will become more like Him... My God will definitely finish the work He started in me... I have to wait. It is tough but I really have to wait.

I don't want to wake up one day wondering what I have to do next or where to go next. I have to remind.... remind myself what I am here for and who I am in this world. a foreigner.

techy? and rantings,whinings,sulkings

i am discouraged in using the following:

mobile phone
mp3 player
email/computer

these three are making my life less and less socially inclined

where is the art of making sincere friends here when things are getting more and more impersonal? I envy my younger sister, she has way cooler friends than I do. When I say cool friends I mean cool real friends. They are not perfect but they are fun to be with. My sister is such a lucky girl. She uses only the mobile phone to meet up with friends. She is not lazy when it comes to meeting up with her friends.

technology does not really offer all the good stuff. (now i'm blaming technology for my poor sets of life decisions)

it has bad stuff too...and most of the time feeds on lazy people or maybe in the process of using, produces lazy non-responsive people.

me included.

but whatever.

I cant just throw away my computer, handphone, mp3 etc right?

because I will be lambasted with nags, and corrections and what not.
also because they cost some money and the make my chores more convenient.

I do not ask people to agree with me. Neither do I need some help.

ugh... there's no use talking to a wall...

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p.s.
after 4 long years, I am still not well accustomed to how NUS teach their students

still I am not learning well

this place is too competitive

hard to find local friends too

ugh... why did i ask for this again?

what's next?

a question that i have been avoiding so far

possibly due to my carelessness in decision making, i am in a crossroad where i must soon leave... but where to?

God have mercy on me. I have never been this clueless before...

for now, i will just live as each day comes.

but i do feel that i have to make a plan at least... or a goal to achieve...

hahay...

immediate activity: tea time!

p.s. last week was a roller coaster week and so are the coming weeks!!!

what's next?

a question that i hvae been avoiding so far

possibly due to my carelessness in decision making, i am in a crossroad where i must soon leave... but where to?

God have mercy on me. I have never been this clueless before...

for now, i will just live as each day comes.

but i do feel that i have to make a plan at least... or a goal to achieve...

hahay...

immediate activity: tea time!

p.s. last week was a roller coaster week and so is next and next and next weeks!!!