day 9 verdict

it has been 9 days since i said i will be a hopeless anime fan no longer

during the transition i did watch 2-3 animes, read one or two manga with so much hesitation

the drastic change wasn't fully implemented successfully but it already is a progress in itself. unlike before nearly 4-8 hours of my day were spent watching/reading/searching for animes... now within nine days span i spent around 3-4 hours for anime watching/manga reading.

i also abandoned my pokemon games (my high school fave game already in 3D with a female character as an option in the RPG and with a lot more powerful and cute pokemons...hehehehe)... it has been 3 days since i abandoned it... i am still a work in progress and I'm thankful to God that I have now another way of spending time more fruitful than those fruitless hours which makes this change a lot more bearable. =)

praise be to God!

keep me standing on the ground Lord

I am excited but at the same time wary of the possible emotions that could potentially be disastrous of what I am excited about.

I hope the Lord would keep me on the ground along with my brothers and sisters in Him. =)

God made a way

thank you Lord!!!!!!!!!!

there were failed attempts in the past, but this time it's different...

we praise you! for it was You who made the calling

Amen and Amen!

acting like I know

have you ever looked at a problem in the eye and said, "i have nothing to lose"
basically because you think you lost everything but yourself?

sometimes i get that kind of feeling, but yeah, I still do have something. there are just times when you get that kind of feeling..

suffering is no stranger to some of us...

but those who experienced comfort their whole lives are lucky buds!

the tough part is, on top of the misfortunes, will i still be able to praise and worship Him truly?
Been trying to although I have been blind of His blessings. I'm the rebellious child and to the likes of me suffering is no stranger, just a long lost companion.

-radical-

day 1 verdict

my last post of course did not left without any claim for a change

i said... " i will be a hopeless anime fan no longer"

after day 1 of my experiment here are my observations

1. the time i saved from watching anime still remains fruitless... i used it for some other entertaining things if not used to bore myself with nothingness...

2. because i do nothing really, i still do nothing... very pathetic as usual

verdict:

because i am undergoing a drastic change of lifestyle it is only normal to recoil like this...
no mood to study or do any other productive things. it would be a good suggestion to undergo this change gradually BUT i think the temptation of watching anime can be just too overwhelming.

thus, for now it is best to observe a few more days with this drastic implementation and see if there is something that needs to be done by then...

rating:

not-much-of-a- failure aka... acceptable!

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enjoyed the Pinoy gathering, thanks to Wayne, Jason, and everyone else who were involved

i am a hopeless case...

of the terminal illness called anime obsession... admittedly my great downfall

why do i love anime? because of many reasons... it is fun, it shows some valuable lessons about friendship, family, and even romance; it shows chivalrous men that seem to be wiped out in reality nowadays :P. Anime is the most effective chocolate for me whenever I am on my own... The retarded jokes, the unintended puns, the funny smiles and human intentions behind supernatural cosmic events just never failed to lift me up. Sometimes the shows make me feel like I am not in the worst possible situation and make me see some hope beyond the problems' scarring face. Also, I see some of my desires in the shows and even the pathetic means of obtaining them. In other words, I can relate (but of course, fellow humans made it and to be effective they have to make something we can relate to). Indeed to me it is not just a cartoon for kids (it is not at all for kids... people earn billions out of anime and no it is not just made for kids...they target quite a wide range of age groups, wider than you could imagine!).

Anime, to me, is a form of escape in this painful reality similar to drugs... And in the same way, it is also a downfall of a human soul... Anime is like marijuana, although I haven't tried that weed in my life but I bet those who use it share the same feeling of addiction that I have for animes. Addiction, in itself... is already bad enough. And I guess I need not explain why.

You may laugh at me... You can even scoff of me. Do as you wish. For all you know, we all have our own sets of downfalls...

baah... this is the most rubbish post ever... but it does share the rubbish thoughts i have

shameful but true...

i am a hopeless anime fan

but I will be a hopeless anime fan no longer!

la la la

i like Corrs!!!!!!!

Woot! I like Andrea too... like her, I am the third child weehee :P

Ha ha ha... enough

"this boy is cracking up...this boy has broke down..."

they really have cool beats, it is cool to be a musician... like them... how I wish.

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i love my God, I love the church, I love my family, I love my friends and I love Rohit!

back is back is back

I got my desktop finally! with vista and some new software i can use for the MTV, ready here I go! Although bye-bye to my savings for now... Might be begging in the streets in a few months :P

I have been irresponsible with my commitments in church and all that... But I hope I am not all too late.

Just had my fyp briefing... all the while i thought my fyp is a bit boring... but guess again...

FYP here I go! hahahahahahaha

Thank you Lord! everything is well again...

Praises belongs to you over and over!

And to all my good friends, I love you guys!

HUGS!

attached

for the past few days i have been upset for a few reasons...

one is because my laptop is gone (something wrong with the motherboard... likely with the power part)... and currently i was thinking of buying a new desktop with good specs or a laptop with not so good specs using whatever money i have... however, whatever savings i plan to have for my after final year activities (like job hunting, house renting, overseas trip (?)) will be gone. It is a compromise... so it is either i get more convenience with the new PC and worry about the after final year financial issues later or live off my final year from the computer center, a tougher decision to make, and have something for stormy days... well these are the two extremes that I am considering right now as other options are more or less related to the said "ends". (side comment: tough to be really away from the family and trying to be independent... I mean it is not like I have much of a choice anyway, our house is definitely not flooding with gold bars, cold cash and dazzling diamonds and my family's overall bank account don't have trillions on them... but yeah I believe He has a reason why I am not born as Bill Gate's heir =P ... and I'm really not complaining at all... I love my family! )

second, my phone is messing up... ah... what can I say... things just don't last forever and I am not really compatible with my phone despite its very convenient features. I need a phone that can survive several atomic blast, 140G of acceleration, can work at least 1077 feet under water, never hangs when I run 21 simulation programs simultaneously on it and can make emergency calls even if I am trapped within 100 m thick metal walled room to humans anywhere in this vast universe... *bows*
okay I admit, I did not really take good care of my phone this time. my fault.

third... uh... okay this is personal and I prefer to keep it for myself.

so there... for the most part my reasons to be upset are worldly... I am still attached to the things in this world...

and hope that He will help me out with this issue... I believe He will...
I just have to be a little less stubborn most of the time. seriously this time...

ranting: pareto efficient not!

sometimes i can't help but think how fortunate i am compared to those who are suffering poverty, persecution in my country or in Afghanistan or in Burma, etc etc.

and yet there are also a lot of those who are way better off than me. relatively speaking, i am suffering too.

funny how the rich gets richer (and in the process destroying the earth... see floods and all that) and the poor gets poorer (contributes a part of earth destruction but often times directed by latter... they are also worse off victims of the surging calamities these days... read the world news)

yeah...reminds me of the saying i have read in Marina square

UNTIL THE LAST RIVER IS POISONED AND THE LAST TREE IS CUT WILL THEN YOU REALIZE THAT YOU CANNOT EAT MONEY

or something like that... better yet, until the last plain is flooded, the last mountain atomic bombed and the last fish poisoned will then people realize that they destroyed the planet and they have to eat money as their main course and dirty murky radioactive water as their wine.. or maybe they have to fly to mars and start vegetation there, if they still have the resources. or from this moment onwards make money made of chocolate or something as nourishing...

sometimes i think that every time i indulge myself... the resources spent for my indulgence must have destroyed a bit of the planet, must have made someone better off and many others worse off...

funny right? i mean if we continue thinking this way, then what ends are we aiming for? we are supposed to live... and in doing so, the earth dies... but then we will die too at God's appointed time... everything is fleeting like the mist (oh by now you should know where my blog name came from =P)

with all these, it is so true that the whole earth is fading away just as the bible says... why live for the things found on it? like money, indulgence and power as ends... not means for something more meaningful to do in this life...

to see is to believe? look around you... look far ahead not just nearby, think about what you see... consider yourself and others... think about 120 years of lifetime and eternity... consider again... then look around...

do you think you can see or do you only see what you want to?

i guess we have our own answers and they might even be conflicting... very conflicting!

but yeah, ganbatte yo!

live your life the way you choose it to be... but choose wisely. and maybe in the end we will find out answers for sure... that is, if we have consciousness beyond the physical... which i believe so.

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what could this post do? make some people realize my point or make them feel miserable or both or whatever that is not stated? i have no idea. but this might be worth mulling over...
i hope.

because i am one of those who don't like to eat paper and stones.

p.s.

basically my point is, since we can't go around killing ourselves (a very stupid choice), let us become good stewards of this God-given planet... live!